Hmm . How do ii start .? ii dun even know how to .
Now my mood was down .. down .. and way down .
ii dun really know what happened . But it just came suddenly .
ii thought of her and it reminds me of tomorrows BBQ .
ii dun know whether will she attend tomorrow .?
But ii will be most happy if she does .
At this stage now . ii think it is a 80% that she wont appear .
actually ii dont really mind about the BBQ .
ii can actually sit at somewhere andd wait until she turn up .
Nort 14 seconds .. Nort 14 minutes .. Even 14 hours ii am willing to .
ii cannort carry on with this blog anymore .
All ii can say is that ii really misses you alot . More than anyone else does .